Someone showed they cared about me.
Then I broke down.
I don't necessarily like to cry in public. Like sometimes it just happens where I'm sad, and I need have a good old fashioned cry and I happen to be in a public space so I cry. And most people are scared to see a person cry, so they leave me alone which is awesome. But when I'm at some random diner and I'm eating my dinner all by myself, and then Allen sends me the most simple of texts that shows he's greatful for my friendship, and that he still cares about me. . . and I completely breakdown in tears.
I was facing away from most everyone in the diner, which is unusual for me because I typically like to face people, and watch them interact. So the only person that could really see me was my server. So I started to cry. Then my server walked by. I'm just crying. She seems like a caring person and so she stopped and without saying anything verbally, she asked me what was wrong. I can't explain to her why I was crying I just was. And it wasn't that I was crying so hard that I couldn't talk or breathe. But if told her why I was crying, it'd would make me want to cry some more. So, I just kind of nodded in a way to answer her question
I just miss some really great people in my life.
And it sucks too because I know that I can't be with all of those people in Utah and be happy. I am happy in Chicago. I just miss good people that care.
And I'm not saying that no body here cares about me. It's just that here, no one really knows me yet.
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