Have you noticed how everyone, everywhere says that?
Blah blah blah.
In order to finish a sentence, people say blah blah blah. To finish explaining. Blah blah blah.
I notice it more because a 5 year old says it to me. . .a lot.
Then I notice my Dad back in Utah saying it.
Then I notice them using it on 30 Rock.
Then I notice it from my teachers at the annoyance and at the second city.
I just notice it everywhere. I even notice I say it. But blah blah blah is such a beautiful filler. It's perfect. It's easy to say, few people notice it. It can mean so many different things.
I took a before picture. Because I want to see the progress I make with this working out.
I need to get in shape. I want to be hot. ter. Like I feel like I've been living this horrible lie for a really long time.
Well, there is a couple of lies I was living.
I felt really super old in Utah. Like I was way too old to get married. I had become an old maid.
And then I was trapped in this mindset that I was too old to go anywhere or do anything exciting or adventurous.
Thank goodness I broke out of that. Because now that I live in Chicago, I feel like a baby. Which feels WEIRD after feeling like you were old for so long. But I like feeling young. It's great! I get to be stupid, and blame it on my age. That's pretty cool.
Also, the other lie I was living was that I am not attractive. . . mostly I would blame it on my breasts. . .
I mean I've had male friends in the past tell me straight out that my breasts are unattractive. And I took what they said to be the view of all men everywhere. Which is weird. And stupid. And what's weirder, is I wasn't smart enough at the time to realize that they were full of bullshit, or to even call them out on their bullshit.
It don't know it's weird that you let people treat you the way you see yourself. And I feel like I see myself in a different light now. So that's fantastic.
And in a few weeks, I will see a little less of myself.
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