game plan.

I couldn't sleep last night because of all these tangled thoughts inside my brain. Multiple times I had to release my jaw and remind myself to breathe. I almost felt stuck last night. I felt stuck in Utah, and I wouldn't be able to get out.

Then this morning, I got this email from one of the teachers I had in Chicago. His name is Dean. I kept asking him about places to go study mime and clown. He said this: You know what you want to do. The universe is waiting for you to stand up and do it.

I instantly started to cry. At first I had no clue why I was crying. As I was thinking about it, I started to understand. It's the truth. That is why I was crying. No one has ever told me anything like that before. But I feel like it's something that I inherently knew, but needed to be reminded.

My whole trip to Chicago was like a giant gift from the universe. The night I looked up the Second City's summer courses, I remember saying out loud "If I'm supposed to be in Chicago this summer, I'm going to need some help."

I applied for the scholarship at the Second City. Then I got it. My dear brother David sold me his airfare miles for $200 round trip. I asked a friend Chad if he knew of anyone I could stay with, and then these amazing strangers opened their homes to me and let me crash with them. Of the 21 days I was in Chicago, I had to pay for 4 nights to stay somewhere. It was perfect.

I want to continue to learn improv, I want to start to learn mime and clown. So, this is me standing up and doing it. I'm getting my affairs in order here in Cedar. I'm selling my car. I'm picking up a second job. I'm moving before my birthday in November. And I know the universe will have my back.