laughing my day away

Several funny things happened to me today.
I will share a couple.
When Melissa got home from work (which is when I get off work, because I'm a nanny and all) she was asking her girls a question "Which one of you is always biting the erasers off of the pencils?" Daphne, the two year old said. "Oh. It's me. I do that." She sighed and looked over at me. "And Wizzy too."
Then I was talking about how fun the clown revue was with the pie fight afterwards, and I said "Yeah, I couldn't seem to get all the shaving cream smell out of my hair"
Olivia, the six year old, climbs up on the chair next to me, grabs my hair smells it. Then "Oh yeah. Still smelly!"
I don't know why I thought those things were funny. They just are.

I know sometimes, I post sad blogs when I'm feeling sad. But I feel like my overall well being has improved. Even though yesterday ended in tears, so many cool things happened in the day. And I think partly it was because I was so tired. But partly because I feel like I'm a bad person for lying. Twice. But overall, it was awesome. I got to dress up as a clown and give away flowers. People laughed and it was fantastic. :)
I know that there are ups and downs in life, and I'm ok with that. I guess I don't want to concern anyone. And I don't need to talk to anyone about my problems, because I'll probably just lie about them so people don't think I'm a bad person or something stupid like that. If I DO need to talk, I'll probably call you. So just wait for me to take that step and don't try and swoop in and save me. I'm just writing to see if I personally can get a better grip on my emotions.
but today, i feel much better, and can laugh.