When I used to think about moving out of state, I always did a lot of research of the state that could be my future state of residence. The research involves what type of spiders are there, what are the chances of a tornado, is it on an active fault line, is there a volcano nearby and is it active or dormant.
And this is probably because I am paranoid.
But I realized as I walked out of the bathroom last night, and let out a small yelp when there was a scary spider on the wall, that I did not do any such research on the state of Illinois.
I just up and moved here.
Which seems so weird to me, because a year ago I got this scholarship to the Second City. And I was really excited that I would get to take a trip all by myself to a big city. But at the same time I thought weeeeeellllll it's a big city, and I don't really like big cities...
But what are vacations for to get away.
The then all the sudden within 3 days of being in Chicago I got off the train one morning and I thought "I'm going to live here." Which was weird because I've never really thought that about any place before.
And by the time I was leaving Chicago, I was getting all teary eyed because I didn't want to leave and it was the most beautiful big cities I've ever been to.
I find it so obscure that I never had the desire to even go to Chicago. Like it was never ever on my list of places to even visit, let alone live in.
But I am so happy that I live here now.
And yeah, times get weird when I think "If I didn't leave Utah I could still show up on a friend's doorstep with a red box and ice cream unannounced and they'd let me in and we'd watch the movie and eat the ice cream" But I also think that it's cool that I'm feeling sad, in Chicago. :)
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