I am a lactose-intolerant vegetarian. I love the vegetarian part. That I am good with that. I love to be vegetarian and it's really easy for me to do, and it fits in with my lifestyle. In that, I have a choice. I choose to be a vegetarian. The whole lactose-intolerance thing is very annoying. I still want to eat and consume milk products.
I get really upset that I will have the biggest craving for ice cream, or cheese... and I think NO! I can't do this! I'll be so sick and I'll bitch and moan for like hours about how much my stomach hurts. BUT I KEEP CONSUMING MILK PRODUCTS. And I hate that I do it! I hate it so much. But why do milk products have to be so tasty?
But I will never learn.
Ever.
Oh. And I'm cheap and so I won't go buy those pills that help me digest milk.
I'll just complain. But on a blog so you won't have to hear this in real life.
I also put a lot more thought into the title of this blog than I did the actual blog itself...
Ha ha.
Love you all,
Lizzy
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
Morning
I agreed to help out with PE this morning at work.
PE starts at 6:45 a.m.
I got off of work last night at midnight.
It's not very smart, I know.
I was really annoyed and upset this morning because I didn't have enough sleep, I was tired, and whatever. I was just grumpy this morning.
I bundled up and was walking to work in the darkness of 6:30 cursing the world.
I cursed everything. I was mumbling under my breath as I was walking to work. (On a side note, it would have taken longer for me to get the frost off my windshield than it took for me to walk to work.)
In the middle of my cursing the morning, the weather, and life in general, my gaze lifted from the ground to the sky and I saw the big full moon hanging in the sky. As I walked, I looked up towards the heavens and my mood started to change. Then, shooting across the early morning sky, I saw a big beautiful shooting star.
As I left work this morning, the sky had light up with pink and blue tones as the sun was beginning to rise, and I looked off to the west, and I saw the full moon setting. The moon had taken on a rich yellow tone, and since it was so close to the horizon, it appeared to be much larger than it had only an hour and a half earlier.
This morning was full of beauty. And I don't often get to see what the morning has to offer. It makes me want to be a morning person.
PE starts at 6:45 a.m.
I got off of work last night at midnight.
It's not very smart, I know.
I was really annoyed and upset this morning because I didn't have enough sleep, I was tired, and whatever. I was just grumpy this morning.
I bundled up and was walking to work in the darkness of 6:30 cursing the world.
I cursed everything. I was mumbling under my breath as I was walking to work. (On a side note, it would have taken longer for me to get the frost off my windshield than it took for me to walk to work.)
In the middle of my cursing the morning, the weather, and life in general, my gaze lifted from the ground to the sky and I saw the big full moon hanging in the sky. As I walked, I looked up towards the heavens and my mood started to change. Then, shooting across the early morning sky, I saw a big beautiful shooting star.
As I left work this morning, the sky had light up with pink and blue tones as the sun was beginning to rise, and I looked off to the west, and I saw the full moon setting. The moon had taken on a rich yellow tone, and since it was so close to the horizon, it appeared to be much larger than it had only an hour and a half earlier.
This morning was full of beauty. And I don't often get to see what the morning has to offer. It makes me want to be a morning person.
Monday, March 9, 2009
Have you ever read one of my rambles?
I'm following my own blog! Awesome.
I'm awesome.
Ha ha.
I used to say that every time I did something really bad when I played tennis. Like, swung at the ball and it was like 20 feet to my left or something crazy like that.
Anyway, I've stopped eating milk products.
Or at least I have tried to stop eating milk products. I just get like crazy sick when I eat milk or cheese or sour cream or just about anything. There is no environmental reasons behind my not eating milk, I just really want
I told my Dad on Friday that I have stopped eating milk products. And later that night I was returning to Roy for a visit from Cedar and I had driven through the snow for 2 hours and I was just ready to be home. I called my dad when I was an hour away and told him how hungry and tired and sore my body was and he said "Why don't you pull over somewhere and grab yourself a milkshake?"
His intentions are good. :)
But then for the two days following that I ate milk products. Only in very small amounts. And my body did pay the price.
Today I finally went a whole day without eating milk. It's really a lot harder than you'd think. Start reading labels. EVERYTHING has milk. I'll give this no milk thing a try for about a month and I will see how I am feeling.
Today, I was reading a text book at my desk, then I decided that it would be nice if I could give my back a break and read my book in bed. Ha. That was just a the best idea I had all day. I lay down at about 8 and I FELL ASLEEP. And I woke up at 11. That is fantastic. I don't know how I'm going to be sleeping tonight. But maybe I'll be able to get to sleep. I don't know. I'm really pissed off about the whole sleep thing.
It always betrays me. It's really annoying because you can't function without sleep. And you want to function without sleep because there are not enough hours in a day for a poor starving college student.
So I really hate cooking for myself.
Like, I'm okay with being single and all, but I'm just sick and tired of cooking for myself. I just need people over while I'm cooking to keep me company. That'd be nice. Is "that'd"a word? I don't think so. But it's how i shorten that and would. that would that'd. that'd be nice. I don't remember where I was going with this before I got distracted on whether or not I'm using actual words in the English language.
You were right. I was up all night thinking about you.... those are lyrics to the song I'm listening to right now because I really totally lost my train of thought.
Oh here it is.
I just make so much food it's rediculous. And I'm one person, yet I make meals for 6 or whatever. I guess I'm a natural born hostess. Not really. That was a joke. But it's just weird living in Cedar City. I'm either gone all the time or by myself in my apartment. My roommates are awesome but our schedules really conflict so it's like I live alone in my appartment.
It's hard sometimes, feeling alone because I love to talk to people and I never seem to be talking to anyone anymore because I am just so damn busy. I need my spring break! Then soon there after it will be summer break and it will be fantastic.
I want to go camping so bad.
So here is what I have access to. I have access to 3 blow up beds for camping. One is queen sized and two of them are twin sized.
I need someone with a tent.
If you have tent. You can come camping with me. :)
Ha ha ha. Just kidding. . . Seriously though, I want to go camping. I only live an hour away from Bryce Canyon. The last time I went there... it was ... 7 years ago? Jessica just found out that she was pregnant with Kadin, and Kadin in turning 6 in May, so I do believe that it was just about 7 years ago.
I just remember the stars. They were so bright. I love looking up at the stars in the night sky when there is no light polution. You get lost in these moments of beauty...
And you see so many shooting stars. You get to make as many wishes as you'd like.
I need to connect with nature again. I feel a bit disconnected and that the world is so formal and paved over and it just is a drag. But I don't like to go outside and stick my bare feet in the snow to connect with nature again. . .
It's been snowing again lately. I'm not sure how I feel about that. Actually, I know how I feel about that. I hate it. I really do love snow... when you get the first snow of the year. . . but I really am sick of it. I want the weather to warm up and go camping.
Anyway. I really really really want to get a guitar with my tax return. I've been looking at them online a lot lately and I think it'd be really fun to learn to play the guitar. So I've priced them all and I really would like to get one. I also need to get in guitar lessons. It's just something that I would love to do.
I just need to get into lessons as well. Things cost so much money. But I really would love to do this. And then when I go camping, I can play my guitar around the camp fire. Yay! :)
Anyway. I think that this might be it for the night. I am nearing the hour of 1. And I think if I am going to get back to sleep, this might be my lucky hour.
I'm awesome.
Ha ha.
I used to say that every time I did something really bad when I played tennis. Like, swung at the ball and it was like 20 feet to my left or something crazy like that.
Anyway, I've stopped eating milk products.
Or at least I have tried to stop eating milk products. I just get like crazy sick when I eat milk or cheese or sour cream or just about anything. There is no environmental reasons behind my not eating milk, I just really want
I told my Dad on Friday that I have stopped eating milk products. And later that night I was returning to Roy for a visit from Cedar and I had driven through the snow for 2 hours and I was just ready to be home. I called my dad when I was an hour away and told him how hungry and tired and sore my body was and he said "Why don't you pull over somewhere and grab yourself a milkshake?"
His intentions are good. :)
But then for the two days following that I ate milk products. Only in very small amounts. And my body did pay the price.
Today I finally went a whole day without eating milk. It's really a lot harder than you'd think. Start reading labels. EVERYTHING has milk. I'll give this no milk thing a try for about a month and I will see how I am feeling.
Today, I was reading a text book at my desk, then I decided that it would be nice if I could give my back a break and read my book in bed. Ha. That was just a the best idea I had all day. I lay down at about 8 and I FELL ASLEEP. And I woke up at 11. That is fantastic. I don't know how I'm going to be sleeping tonight. But maybe I'll be able to get to sleep. I don't know. I'm really pissed off about the whole sleep thing.
It always betrays me. It's really annoying because you can't function without sleep. And you want to function without sleep because there are not enough hours in a day for a poor starving college student.
So I really hate cooking for myself.
Like, I'm okay with being single and all, but I'm just sick and tired of cooking for myself. I just need people over while I'm cooking to keep me company. That'd be nice. Is "that'd"a word? I don't think so. But it's how i shorten that and would. that would that'd. that'd be nice. I don't remember where I was going with this before I got distracted on whether or not I'm using actual words in the English language.
You were right. I was up all night thinking about you.... those are lyrics to the song I'm listening to right now because I really totally lost my train of thought.
Oh here it is.
I just make so much food it's rediculous. And I'm one person, yet I make meals for 6 or whatever. I guess I'm a natural born hostess. Not really. That was a joke. But it's just weird living in Cedar City. I'm either gone all the time or by myself in my apartment. My roommates are awesome but our schedules really conflict so it's like I live alone in my appartment.
It's hard sometimes, feeling alone because I love to talk to people and I never seem to be talking to anyone anymore because I am just so damn busy. I need my spring break! Then soon there after it will be summer break and it will be fantastic.
I want to go camping so bad.
So here is what I have access to. I have access to 3 blow up beds for camping. One is queen sized and two of them are twin sized.
I need someone with a tent.
If you have tent. You can come camping with me. :)
Ha ha ha. Just kidding. . . Seriously though, I want to go camping. I only live an hour away from Bryce Canyon. The last time I went there... it was ... 7 years ago? Jessica just found out that she was pregnant with Kadin, and Kadin in turning 6 in May, so I do believe that it was just about 7 years ago.
I just remember the stars. They were so bright. I love looking up at the stars in the night sky when there is no light polution. You get lost in these moments of beauty...
And you see so many shooting stars. You get to make as many wishes as you'd like.
I need to connect with nature again. I feel a bit disconnected and that the world is so formal and paved over and it just is a drag. But I don't like to go outside and stick my bare feet in the snow to connect with nature again. . .
It's been snowing again lately. I'm not sure how I feel about that. Actually, I know how I feel about that. I hate it. I really do love snow... when you get the first snow of the year. . . but I really am sick of it. I want the weather to warm up and go camping.
Anyway. I really really really want to get a guitar with my tax return. I've been looking at them online a lot lately and I think it'd be really fun to learn to play the guitar. So I've priced them all and I really would like to get one. I also need to get in guitar lessons. It's just something that I would love to do.
I just need to get into lessons as well. Things cost so much money. But I really would love to do this. And then when I go camping, I can play my guitar around the camp fire. Yay! :)
Anyway. I think that this might be it for the night. I am nearing the hour of 1. And I think if I am going to get back to sleep, this might be my lucky hour.
Worry
If you worry you die. If you don't worry, you still die. So why worry?I can't remember who said that, but I remember reading it in a Nat Geo magazine at the therapists office when I was waiting to pick up some kids from therapy.
I have been thinking about that a lot lately and how much my worrying controls me. And I don't think I'm okay with that anymore.
I worry too much on if I look like a fool, if I sound intelligent, if I'm attractive to members of the opposite sex. But I really am so tired of worrying of how I appear, that I'm missing just being in the moment, and I'm missing life.
The end result in everyone's life is death. No matter what. I'm just going to be happy. And if I find myself caught up in a worry, I'll bitch slap myself and be happy again. :)
Sunday, March 8, 2009
Plans
I always am trying to make plans on when I'm getting away for the weekend or things like that. But they are always changing. Always. And it's never what I planned. And that makes me sad.
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